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Well, I rarely blog, now-a-days. I pretty much miss this whole "rant about your life" kind of thing, but what can you do? I want to dedicate myself to my studies as much as possible and heck, I could spend over an hour blogging about ONE day. I really found it necessary to mention every detail- so that I could preserve my memory. -_- Ahh, as of late, I've been using Google calendar to keep up with my life. HAHA. -_- I pretty much jot down everything that happens, minus phone calls from people 'cause I forget when the times are. >< I've been using this since the start of this year... And I've skipped a few days, 'cause I just couldn't be bothered listing all my classes. :x LATELY, THERE'S BEEN A BUG, OR SOMETHING AND MY CALENDAR KEEPS LISTING MY EVENTS AS "CANCELED." It's so depressing. D: I wish I could keep it going... I really wanted March to be like- some sort of magic month where I literally kept up to date with EVERYTHING! Fail. On many levels.

Anyways, as for today, besides the classmates who I deem "idiots," I would say that my day was quite average. I seldom remember anything from Chemistry... But, today, back titration went straight to my heart. :D Except the gas formula. -_- HAHA, I needed Daniel to rescue me, there. YES, DANIEL. I said, that from now on, I shall call him DANIEL. Though, I always catch myself calling him "Mr. Walsh," instead. -_- Ah. Today's Chemistry lesson flew by quite quickly! Hmm, on another note, though... I'm starting to reconsider my opinions of literally EVERYONE. Nothing is what it seems... I've been viewed as "naive." I really don't want to see the bad side of people... Dude, call me crazy, but yesterday night, I was thinking, "damn, I'll even miss the dumbasses in my year level." I just need that kind of balance. xD OR! It makes me feel better about myself. HAHA. Ahh. It may be hard to believe, but I'm starting to respect BRENTON. xD Man, he's been the loud-mouth since Year 7, but when you sit down and talk with him, he can be alright. I guess, this is my way of dealing with things... Rather than complaining about the idiots in my class, just get to know 'em and accept 'em! Seeing as Brenton's in two of my five classes. xD Woo... xD

Alright, I don't have that much time on my hands, but I feel like jotting some thoughts down. HECK, I MISS BLOGGING SO MUCH! >_> I feel some sense of freedom, when I blog. :/ I think... I think that this is the best way to release stress, or anything of the sort. CLEANSING- ridding of negative energy. xD To find my inner chi, or something or other. HAHA. Ahh... :D I'm pretty happy... I guess my day wasn't so average, after all. xD Silly me. OH, MY PICTURE IS POSTED UP IN LINK CORRIDOR. MAJOR LAWL. xD Colin looks adorable. xD <3

I do not understand why, but my rich text formatting is not appearing! Oh, woe! I have come to the decision that I shall only blog every third day- due to my fondness of multiples of three! It's an odd decision to come to- but it will be for the better, as I still have my calendar to remind me of my day-to-day events. :) Not that any of you see it, though. :/ I'll keep you guys as updated as I can! And I will make time for a chat over a cup of tea, as well. :)

If you haven't noticed- I think "Washington Square," by Henry James, has played with my mind! I don't know why- everytime I read a book, I go all crazy nuts and try and adapt to the world that they live in. After reading "The Catcher In The Rye," I was talking like Holden Caulfield! My golly gosh- what do I do. xD I had no idea my speech was so easily influenced. I think I'd like to read more books like this- to develop my oh so ever dwindling vocabulary. D:

The texts that we study in English are decent. I hate the swearing, but the stories always capture me. They're easier to relate to. The texts we study in Literature seem to cover more of what's out there and I just love the different worlds I'm exposed to whilst reading/studying! It thrills me, so. :)

Funny thing is- every time I've tried to read "Washington Square," I've fallen asleep after two chapters or less! >< I have no idea why it took me so long to get through it. I didn't find it boring. I was actually quite interested and I perhaps wondered what was so charming about this Morris Townsend. >< When I originally started reading- I imagined him as DENNIS O'NEIL. :x What a horribly fangirl-like thing to do. -_-

Overall, I guess I enjoyed "Washington Square." I can't say it completely won me over. The lifestyle interests me; and the language always keeps me drawn in- although, they can get so wordy sometimes, I start skimming. >< It's horrible to do- but once I actually have to study the text, I'm sure I'll read it more throughly! I just wanted to know what happened, in the end, so I kept pushing myself to read! ><

I've managed to get Soochong a little interested, also! Which I find quite amazing, seeing as he hated "Pride and Prejudice..." Or more like, he was being an idiot when he read it. -_- Whatever the case- I shall lend him my copy and he shall read it, like a man! Yeuh! xD

Since my last update, not much has happened that is worth blogging. Life changing things, perhaps, but there are other things to be thought of, first. And I will be conscious of it all. :) School is priority, though! Let's try and get over 86.5, was it? I CAN DO THAT, RIGHT? :D :D

I've been looking into the kind of courses I'd be interested in undertaking in university. Sue's given me a couple of ideas, and Soochong's thrown in some, also. I guess, I'm really starting to get a picture of what I'd like to be, in the future. ^^ I'm not sure- yet, but it seems like it's really coming together and I'm pretty happy about it! Wendy advises for me to talk to Pala about it all, and well- it'll work from there! Until then- I'll just be happy with the dreams. ^^

Tomorrow, I will hopefully be seeing many of my friends at the Springvale New Year's Festival! I believe I'll be taking the bus with Benny- maybe my parents might even be able to drop us off! It all sounds pretty delightful and I'm pretty excited. I'm feeling kind of guilty, but... My conscience doesn't feel clear, but it'll be a good day, tomorrow. I miss Benny! I miss Charmaine! I miss Leenah! And I'll be able to see them tomorrow! I'm so excited. ^^ I can't wait to give Benny his puzzle. :D :D

School will be starting soon. I'll get to see everyone, again. :D Tuesday will be the last time I'm going out, unless something happens for Daniel or Charmaine's birthdays... WHICH I HOPE SOMETHING DOES. T_T I was thinking of organising something- but if they have a joint party, would someone kill me? -_- I'd been meaning to organise something with Dan, but I haven't talked to him for a few days. D: I guess- SEE WHAT HAPPENS! There's still much to be done. ><

Okay, talk about depressing! T_T I haven't watched Home and Away in the longest of times... I had expected to watch How I Met Your Mother, but Home and Away's alright, too! JUST HEAPS MORE DEPRESSING AND HEART-WRENCHING! HECK! One of my favourite characters... T_T ARGH! WHY! WHY WHY! This just drives me nuts on the inside and out. D: I don't even know why everything is happening, 'cause I didn't watch the end of the last season. Mum and dad NEVER watch anymore, since they had satellite... BUT, ZOMG. >< WHY THE HECK. >< I knew he was never as charming as he looked! ARGH. FDJNBJKVA. I can't believe I'm ranting about this. T_T I just feel so dkvn dskjva about it all. But for some crazy reason, even when I blog about it- I don't want to throw any names in case I spoil it for someone... HAHA, I'm such a dork, who the heck am I going to spoil it for? xD I should just say... But I can't bring myself to. T_T It's really depressing.

I don't know. ><

Two days have gone by and I haven't even set foot in here! How unlike me! :( There's a lot of things that I haven't done for this blog- and I don't think I'll ever get around to it. I know- I know- that's not the attitude I should be having! T_T But it's only true! It's a shame that I've begun 2009, like this... I think I should still blog on a regular basis, however, perhaps EVERYDAY is a bit too extreme... Don't you agree? >< I still keep my Google calendar updated, although, no one sees that but me- and my trusty companion who has my password. x_x Hahah, speaking of which, his conversation is beeping like crazy, so I'll have to continue this a little later! ><

12:30 edit - Okay, since I've signed out of G-Talk now- I've no disturbances! HAHA, not that Soozhong was a disturbance, of course. :) Hmmm! Today's mostly consisted of chores, so far. I woke up, washed my face, brushed my teeth and tied my hair. And from there, I just got stuck into hanging out the clothes, socks, washing the dishes and just cleaning- overall. I have no idea why, but I have this urge to keep everything neat and clean. Dan thinks I'm so weird, but anytime he touches me things- he "dusts" it off and makes it seem like he cares, as well. xD OR SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES! He just reminds me how silly I am, without outright bagging me. xD

I've pretty much been doing everything by the hour. It feels good to be organised. Hopefully I'll be done with this blog by 1pm, and then I'll get stuck into ironing. Hehe. ^^ I feel like today's begun quite beautifully! :D Mum's gone back to work- and so, I'm home alone for the next two weeks. However, tomorrow, I've got radio to go to. That's 8-9pm on SYN 90.7fm, everyone! Please be sure to listen to Jessie and I. :D We're on every Tuesday! ^^

I played a bit of Pet Society, earlier, but I'm starting to think that it's a bit WEIRD. They have this Cafe feature, where you can visit random people's pets, and people have been visiting mine and adding my FaceBook. Furthermore, I received a message from one girl saying that she had a fun time playing with Silly Boy (my pet's name) and that she hopes that we can become friends so that we can play again... Oh man. I don't think Pet Society is the kind of game where you MEET PEOPLE. It's just plain WEIRD to me. I'm just trying to save up my coins! I've gone down in ranking BADLY. Shandi and Kimberly are nutters. Xinzhi, Aveline and I have all fallen dramatically. -_-

As for the past few days... I guess I've seen a few people, here and there. I'll look back on my calendar for assitance! Now, let's start with yesterday! No phone calls, or anything, yesterday. :) I generally seem to have heaps from zee one man- but hopefully, we'll learn not to spend so much money! >< It's kind of crazy, when you think how much us teenagers can spend! :x I can't wait until reality hits me. -_- I don't want to live in ignorance for much longer. Especially with Year 12 coming up!

My parents went out dancing from 2pm to 5pm?! I don't know the exatc times, but they were gone longer than usual. I had originally planned to drop by Linnie's house, so that I could talk with Melvyn about Year 12 and just spend some time with the family. :) But, that idea got cancelled. I stayed home and did chores, instead. Wendy is SUCH a butt. She's like, "NO, you go do it." She really doesn't help... Thing is- mum's just painted the deck and dad grows a LOT of plants. Mum said to put the plants on top of a piece of material, so that the dirt wouldn't go all over the deck, but I didn't know where to get the material from... I asked Wendy for help, but she said she wouldn't help me find any material; that she'd only help with the heavy-lifting. -_- Okay, I should be thankful enough that she did help me, in the end... BUT MAN. The way she yelled at me. She really can get on my nerves, sometimes. I don't understand why she's so lazy. :x Ahh, but alas. I need her. She says that when she was my age, she never went out or spent money like I do. But also, when she was my age, she didn't go half the crap that I do. -_- It always seemed like she watched cartoons, all day. Hmm. I don't think I remember clearly enough, though. I'll just blame my memory for not remembering what an awesome daughter she was!

My parents deserve so much more. ><

On Saturday, we had visitors drop in on us at 7pm. Thing is- I wouldn't really have minded- not if they phoned, first. Really, we'd just finished dinner, we're all like, lounging about- digesting our meals! T_T The house was a mess, and as soon as I saw the car pull in, I ran and picked up all that I could and quickly told Wendy we had guests. My hair was a mess, too. I'd just come out of the shower and it was all wet, of course. D: It seemed horrible...

That visit from Tiffany's family made me realise quite a few things. Now, Tiffany's basically the same age, as me. I never understood it when I was younger, but she's born in 1992, and she's undergoing Year 12 this year, also. Now that's deadly- it just results in parents bragging over their child. It's a horrible feeling, for me. If I do well- I do well. If I do badly, I don't want another parent hearing about it! Actually, I don't want anyone to hear about how well or badly I do. It's up to me to decide who I want to know, and at this point, I'm wondering if telling my parents is all its worth! T_T I just don't want to disappoint them. ><

Quite a few phones that day- morning, afternoon and night. The night-time ones would've been the most interesting, after how I felt... But, that'll be kept between Soozhongee and I. :) He always lifts my spirits! <3

On Friday, I made a little booking with Dandan and we went to the library to study, together! Soozhong called me in the morning, as I was getting ready. Dan said he'd meet me at 11am, at my house. :) We set off to the library at 11:15am and arrived about 15 minutes later. :) He decided that we should chill, first, and then get stuck into it. We didn't actually DO much, for what Dan had in mind. But that's alright! It was awesome to catch up, and seeing as I don't have any classes with him, this year... It's all that I can ask for.

Hehe, Dan and his "schedule!" He's not very organised, but at least he works to a schedule. xD But, Soozhong said that's procrastinating at its best. xD Hehe. Oh well! I'm sure he managed to get a little work, done. I'm not actually too sure, since I never saw his work. -_- At 1pm, we set off to the shops to buy drinks and some food! We stepped into Safeway, first, where he got a Big M of some sort- and then headed to Baker's Delight so that I could buy an Italian roll. YES, MAGGIE. ITALIAN ROLL. T_T I wish you were here. <3

Next up, we went to Big W, and there, I saw Melvyn and Uncle Alex! I talked with them for a bit, and Dan walked off. -_- The day prior, Melvyn called me and we talked about Year 12 and what we're thinking of doing, in the future. I've grown up with Melvyn; always by my side. :D I'm so glad they ended up moving down here; it's kind of crazy, I can't imagine life without 'em! :D They've been living in that house for ten years, now, but it feels like my lifetime. xD

Eek, it's already 12:58pm, I'm going to have to cut this short, so that I can keep my day moving! T_T I'll continue blogging another time, but I'm sure I'll get back to this, soon. I'll be setting intervals, and such! Don't you worry. :D I also have to finish tagging my blogs. :x I tried tagging that MASSIVE blog from Wednesday, but heck! It was intensely LONG. T_T Mum just sent me a text about the chores, and I said I'd already done them and she said, "good girl." HAHA. T_T Oh man. xD What a cracker! Anyways, I'll be off, for now! Take care in the meantime, everyone! ^O^